The problem with me is everytime I achieve certain heights, whether it is expected or unexpected.. I get anxiety. I thought I wont be able to do much, to go to the next step. But they said, great power comes with great responsibility. It doesn't make any sense at first, but hey I'm trying to understand it better now.
Hate that I always found myself in the same spot even after a few months. Rasa mcm all this time, all the efforts, I am still going back to the first spot. Losing motivations, yes. That's the thing with me, I lose motivation so easily. You can push me with zero force, and then boom! Lost the motivation, like a dust!
But as they said, great power of course will come with great responsibility. And by understanding the responsibility, one must learn and copy from the now successful people. Ya, it is hard sometimes. Especially when you're your biggest enemy. Always look down on myself, and thought neh, mimpi lah!
But, deep down I do believe that if you can dream it, you can achieve it. Even if you just hit the 'almost there' steps, well, for me, still a big achievement I guess.
So, now. If anyone ask me, what will be my goal. I'd say, overcoming the fears, the anxieties, the overthinking. Here's to proving myself that yes, I can dream it and I can do it <3